I Deserve Wrath

I guess my heart has always been for the underdogs (which I operationally define as the losers, the black sheep, the weirdos, the villains, those looked down upon by other people).

Every time an issue pops up where a certain person or group or event or activity or whatever is being bashed, ridiculed, or simply bad-mouthed or laughed at, I almost always quickly step back. Tempting as it is to join the bandwagon, instinct tells me to pause and assess the situation first.

They are underdogs for a reason. It’s because they did something wrong. They did something that warranted the wrath of the people. And most of the time, they deserve that wrath. They do. I’m not questioning that. I don’t step back and risk being labelled as a ‘play-safe neutral un-woke kid’ because I don’t think they deserve that wrath. Because they do. I can attack as other people do if I wanted to. But I don’t. At first I attributed it to my cautious and timid personality, but now I know why.

It’s simply because, I was once an underdog. I was once undeserving and wicked and sinful. People who were holier than me stood ready to throw stones. Then someone named Jesus Christ stood up for me and said, ‘Let anyone who has no sin cast the first stone.’ And the people left, one by one. Then Jesus said, ‘Has no one condemned you? Then neither do I condemn you. Go and sin no more.’

I had no idea what just happened that time. I did not deserve grace, yet I received grace. I deserved punishment, yet I received mercy. That is why, I am trying my best to pass it forward.

Even now, I am still undeserving. I am still sinful. But God has opened my eyes for me to see my sorry state and I have decided to dedicate this blemished heart to Jesus Christ who is able to renew it and make it perfect one day.

I am a long way off. I still have a lot to learn and go through. And it is tiring and sometimes discouraging. But the Lord is faithful and he has never broken a promise. And he promised eternal life to those who believe.

So yeah. There is hope for the underdogs.